Creative Writing 1

Dear Stand Lenard,

Love is sometimes a beautiful thing and sometimes it can be tragic. Loving someone else can be a challenge for some and easy for others. For some their first love is themselves and for many it’s someone else. Well, let me say this it sucks that you can’t be complete about yourself like you would like to in front of your relatives. I’m sorry that you go through that and you’re absolutely right. A person doesn’t have to pick a marriage at least not in our culture but it is what it is. When I say it is what it is, I mean as in sometimes we cannot change the circumstance or people in life. We are not sure sometimes how people are going to react. Some assume right away and isolate us like we are not “normal”. Really, who knows what normal is?I would have to disagree with you when you mentioned that gay bars are depressing. I think the gay bar would be more alive with heterosexuals for the simple fact that some are not used to that type of environment and their reactions are unique. I did find it quite interesting that you said homosexuals are afraid of losing their looks. I wonder if they did what else would they have to lose. Are they afraid of being alone? For some people, despite sexual orientation, loneliness does get worse if we let it get to us and let it take control. I realized something, something that I do and maybe some can agree. I focused more on my life than I do my emotions. The undivided attention focuses towards on something else rather than what I am trying to ignore inside. One can try and try to ignore but I promise you these emotions will someday reveal its true colors. See, you already know that you are gay but it seems to me, now correct me if I am wrong, that your idea of loving an entire audience more than one person is not your reason for justification for hiding your pain. But because you know you are gay and the way you have to live your life hidden, the way you’re dealing with it and that you have for so many years. I grew to learn that one can make themselves more unhappy and lonely by doing this. By ignoring their feelings and focusing on something else. What I am about to say is easier said than done, but get over it. Love yourself and just be. Do not let others views affect you in living the life you desire. It is understandable about your family and their approval because they are all you have got. If they do not accept, would you choose to live a lie and unhappy? Try talking to them if you have not already. I am sure after so long that they will have probably figured it out and are just in denial as well.I agree with you love is a beautiful thing. Gosh! I love the love. You just can’t replace the feeling. It’s another form of security, comfort, and happiness. See, the difference between me and you is that I live more by reasoning than I do on feelings. I pay attention to others than my own feelings which leads me to my other point my friend. I used to wonder about people why many could be unhappy alone or either in a relationship. Just by this observation throughout the years I have learned to do what others are afraid to do, whom others sometimes are afraid to be with and whom others have forgotten. That answers is to love thy self and to be with themselves. Many, of my generation and those younger, have forgotten that they exist and rush into relationship or marriage. Some still have trouble trying to understand themselves as an individual. How do you go around the world loving or trying to learn about someone else before you? I don’t know, maybe it’s just me but I believe if people understood themselves more that he or she is able to understand others as well but sometimes they need fresh pairs of eyes just to help them see what they don’t, what they can’t or what they refuse to see.I have never been to confessions before but I will admit the church is sovereign. It is right; it is pure and above all good in morals. The church shaped our country and many others and the people that follow. The church standards, I believe, help create a sense of sanity and right from wrong idea or control. It established most of our laws and what is supposed to be right or feel justified. So, don’t feel that being a homosexual is wrong many just made it that way. The free will to love is a free will so you may freely love. No one can take away from you. Not even written on some piece of paper or stone. I believe that if you accept others, even those who do not accept you that they may just remember that who you fall in love with isn’t who you are but that your heart is open. Show them what kind of person you are and watch how you will become their friend and what sex you’re interested in most likely, hopefully, will be just a shrug of the shoulder and the friendship continues. I wish you the best and good luck. Remember you come first.


Sincerely,


Griselda R.